~self care~

Whenever I feel down, I don't know how to get up. I feel like I drown in my bad emotions. There is stuff that can help. Like showers with lotions, Or drinking some tea. Everyone does self care. It's just not for me. I feel good when my body feels bad. For me self care is different. I hurt myself. Honesty, I just want to ruin my health. I want my body to feel Bad. Sometimes I even hit my head. Or my leg or my knee. I don't care about myself. But you do. So I want to learn how to do actual self care. ~M~