Seen and lonely

Why am I so lonely I feel so unseen Could anyone ever decide to love me? I feel insecure I feel so trapped When did this happen How long will this last? I've worked so hard but I don't see fruit. I work to have friends but I'm still in shadows I feel utterly helpless with no one to help me. Why am I so unsightly but never told why? People act like they care but I feel like a fool People would miss me only if I was gone. Am I only noticed in the absence of others Why can't they notice when I'm in front of them? Sure I'm loved and enjoyed but so is having fun Fun is abstract and I am a fact. Could someone please be interested in me? Could someone want to get to know me? Why do I have to walk thousands of miles. For someone to make two inches of effort? I want to be strong but my strength is gone I want to be whole but I feel incomplete! If I say how I feel they would all feel bad and sure they'd be sorry But nothing more. Maybe I just making this up in my mind. Maybe they'd change and everything'd be alright. What would happened If my hopes were destroyed Could I pick the pieces of my shattered life? Feeling alone is and isn't comforting because the feelings are normal Just as if family.