seeking for affection

Father" "You did not raise me; you choose to walk away. And so, I became the child who crave for affection , but was too scared to accept it, And so I became the teenager who was desperate for love , But constantly searched for it in all the wrong places . The teenager who did not dare step out of line, for fear of rejection. And so, I became the young woman who held into toxic relationship because she did not believe in her worth. And so, I became the strongest woman who healed from the trauma you created years ago. You have hurt me, not physically but emotionally and mentally. As days geos by, my heart becomes stronger and stronger. I was a kid and I thought it was normal , but when I started wondering what it would be like to have been born in a different family. How it will be if it was someone else who gave birth to me . How it will be if mom actually stayed. I know her absence hurt you, but it hurts me too. The only thing I ever wanted from you , was for you to say " I'm sorry". But like I said, expectations are now just wishes, Wishes that I pray would one day come true."