see me or am I a ghost

How much more lonesome can I feel inside, just as the moon is on a cloudy night with no stars in sight. The other half that's supposed to be there with me is nowhere to be seen, for I am walking alone and then on my knees broken from what once was and crawling out of hell. should I remain in this state? should I keep trying even though the waters that once were calm, now thrash and cover me even as I gasp for air to take, As I am at my weakest my enemy creeps out of the darkness trying to corrupt my mind, how much more can I take. The coldness surrounds me and I can feel the chill in my bones for am I anything to your nightly sky or am I just a waist of your day.