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I'm bored or am I? I scroll down. endlessly mindlessly desperate. Trying to find something that will distract me from sleeping, from worrying about tomorrow, from thinking how you didn't answer to my text, from realizing that you're not here. You're 3 hours away. 3 hours is too far away to say: "let's see each other!". Because then you'd ask why. And maybe its just because I want to. Just because I miss you. Just because I love you. But I'm not ready for that. Nor are you. I wish you were here. but you're not. So I'm trapped. waiting for your text. desperate. mindlessly. endlessly scrolling.