Scream

I pray to have a voice. It uggers me to scream the words I never wanted to say. I hate you. My body, mind, and heart want to be strong enough to hit you. I want to yell how I hate you and beat your chest as hate drips from within me. I want you to feel the poison in my words as I preach them. I want to watch your eyes diem as I shatter the light I put in them. I want to hate you how you hated me. I want to be even for what you did to me and what you still do. I wish I was violent to physically hurt you, so you know how upset I am. You know damn well it is not like me to hurt a person, yet I want to hurt you. I want to be so out of character that it destroys you. I want every word to cut deeper into the heart than the last. I wish to wither your "love" away. I want to say any and everything I can to make you less of a man just how everything you have done has made me less of a woman. I want you to cry and feel horrible for all that you have done. I want to bring every up miserable moment that you have put me in. I want to tell the world how I was always loved by you, yet never felt it. I want you to think about everything you have done that has broken my heart. Oh how I love being a woman.