School. (My fault)

A+ A+ A+ A+ A+ A F. I shouldn't sleep until I get my grades up. I need them to be perfect. I NEED to be perfect I need Perfect Straight A's What if no one loves me without good grades I don't even have to try anymore. all I get is A's without Any studying. But One F on my report card will deem me. USELESS. DUMB. IDIOTIC. STUPID. LAZY. BRAINLESS. DULL. UNINTELLIGENT. IGNORANT. DENSE. MINDLESS. FOOLISH. IRRELEVANT. ILL-ADVISED. NAIVE. TRIVIAL. Then the teacher in the class I'm failing. Just says that I shouldn't be failing. that it's easy. That I should understand. That I'm not trying if I'm failing. When I try every day to understand .... And it all comes down to. It's my fault I don't understand It's my fault I'm left in the sand. It's my Fault if I fall behind. It's my Fault I see everything in black and white And it's My fault if I want to die