Schmerz

spilling words through my ears keeping an eye, vigilant, awakening ghosting my feelings freezing teeth cracking at night implying i am everything but good all of those parts hiding pain lacking affection, as always, for good i found the hollow with my bare fist inside my chest lays humiliation as if i really felt or am human at all poignantly the "me" reflected is unsighted they shove it down in the depths like a bullet from a rifle striking a skull a thunder hitting a tree on a mountain or me punching the walls 'till i see blood