scars (part 1)

she was 5 when looked deep in her father eyes saw nothing to cling and hold to so she left with out suprise she was 10 when she found out people saw her body more then her face so she started using it as her only bait she turned 11 and found out friends don't last and family never stays she was 12 when she shuttered her first tear over someone that couldn't even care less she was 13 when she started to understand the weight of guilt and despair to make the right choice even if there wasn't any she was 14 when she new she didnt want revenge vengeance was what she seeked to all the people who made her bleed she found out how to paster a smile and flutter her eyes so she could make people do what she wants it didnt sit right with her all the pain and the tears all the hatred twords herself and the world so she sat waiting for miracles like the ones in the movies a beautiful love that she would never find was all that she wanted and she couldn't live with out no one at her side so she sobbed in despair waiting for agony to collide with vengeance