Scared of Loving you

I'm scared scared of how I feel my own thoughts and wants I want you I want you to be there for me to laugh at my jokes and cry with me I wish I could tell you how I feel that I love you back but I can't I can't bring myself to say it because once I say it it's real and I can't run from it I'm scared to admit that you might mean something more than a silly friend to me I can't say the words I desperately think because I've said them before to someone unworthy of my words they ruined me leaving scars on my skin in their wake but your different I can't risk losing myself like I did back then I came back with missing pieces but next time there will be no pieces left