Sad Life

I always thought friends will always be for you But I've realized that friends are also against too I thought I was surrounded by people who cared But when I was down and needed them they fled I thought I had people who valued me as much as I valued them But I've come to realize they are a five out of ten I wish it wasn't like this I wish I wouldn't think about it But I'm stuck in this timeline I don't think it's mine I think I've always been in utopia Thinking and waiting for my euphoria But it seems I'd be in an endless asphyxia Will I heal? Of all these lies I've been on my kneels Begging to come down from these hills Those things I thought was mine The fact I was never really fine But all I needed was time To understand my life and it's pretty lines