Running away

Here I am, reviewing your messages but still pretending you're out of my wish list Here am I, waiting for your call but some how I still say I'll never fall Today I had a flashback, it made me laugh, i recalled how much I made you smile then wondered if I should have taken the chance Maybe I should have been bolder, but you see, I know this decision was wiser. Let's be sincere, after graduation our feelings would have weakened, and if we traveled we both know the thread would have snapped . All these remains a WOULD, a MAYBE, a SURELY it's not an IT WAS. All just in my head, all just suppositions made by my brain in an attempt to protect my heart or just to flee from that I thought I've let you go, I thought I was happy now but with just a mention of your name in my friend's status, my heart skipped a beat, those feelings I thought gone came back in a rollercoaster, devastating my senses and my pride. I just hope someday, this will be over, that maybe I'll find self peace because now I see love isn't for me