routine

Crying only happens once a week no more and no less I wouldn't allow myself to cry over something more than once anyways, im stronger than that at least I try to think I'll tell myself im okay, its not a hard routine to follow Day 1. im recovering from the night before eyes red and puffy, pounding headache and the bottles of alcohol staggered across my room Day 2. Getting better but hey if I can make it a few more days I'll be okay Day 3. This is the day I might actually think im happy. The facade of euphoria has began its course Day 4. The sudden rush of serotonin has me wanting to make plans with friends Day 5. The happiness is starting to wear off, im finding more reasons to avoid everyone again Day 6. I cancel my plans Day 7. im alone in my room trying to stay quiet as I cry, maybe just a little sip of alcohol will help? It doesn't so ill just have some more. Fuck im a terrible person and this is why this happens to me. The overthinking overwhelms me. Any emotion a person could have is being thrown at me in waves. But remember, crying only happens once a week no more and no less