Rope (one of the attempts)

There is a rope next to me Attached to the ceiling. And the voices are telling me to end it I place the rope onto my neck. As I try to wait for my friends to text They finally respond, oh what a surprise They only had to wait for 6 hours. I start my countdown from ten to nine "I want this to end." I quickly thought nine to eight. "this is really happening.." I try to stop smiling eight to seven. "I'm gonna die and I'm just.. happy" I can't help myself from laughing seven to six. "it's no use for texting them ain't it?" I throw the phone across the room. six to five. "I hope this works" I finally concentrate five to four. four to three.. two to one... one to... zer- I was interrupted by my doorbell I start having thoughts whether to die or to resolve. as I open the door I see my only friends that has been true to me. let's call them Zipline and ember. although I tried my best they saw the rope they didn't encourage me.. instead, they guided me:> they led me to the doors of therapy and I finally got to feel how I wanted to be:) just because of a simple visit. I would always like a reliving.