rope

How do I put this into words I've loved you for long maybe it's time to let go of the rope that's been burning my hands callouses and red marks make me wonder was it ever worth it all? the more I saw you the more I pulled it back so nothing could slip out of my small fingers I wish I could control my thoughts and the way my words come out do you know how hard in trying here? it seems not I wish someone would rip this rope out of my hands so I'll notice it's over notice I've lost notice it's time to let go and notice to bandage my hands and take care of myself.