right now

Right Now my heart beat faded, my anxious heart starts. Right Now looking down at my body, I am disgusted Right Now I have perssimistic thoughts,y emotions are loud Right now I'm wary on my next action I make Right now I want spill all it out but somehow I don't know how Right Now I'm starting to have courage to tell myself this will no longer control me but I think about he won't talk or touch me. Right Now it's all on me, it's all on my actions Right Now I'm internally bashing myself.