Rid of this Emptiness

I walk with the purpose of happiness Rather than the hopes of the ugliness That seeps and screams out of me But I'm fine really Because I can sit here and rot As I cry in my bed When only true feelings are sought And rid of these words in my head I search and I dig For these feelings around It's making me sick That they're nowhere to be found So yes I'm fine, I'm not crying out of sadness I'm really not lying i just want rid of this emptiness