restless life (PART ONE)

my ugly gaze comes from an ugly place, Always remember always remember no place is ugly only the people are, murders rather sleep in mental hospitals. I'm no murder but I will never go back to residential. they put me in for pain but that the only thing I've gained, they were the ones to decide my rights. they decided to give me a singular right. my right was to do what I'm told, if I did not follow that it will add upon my stay. The only Peace was in a room the size of a closet. The walls were wood but from past brother, sisters there was definitely violence. so many holes in one wall I think they gave up on patching. lucky they didn't have to worry I'll never damage something that someone else will use. the floor was disgusting no matter how much they clean it. dust still forms. it looked like flooring from an abandoned school. trust me I'm not complaining being alone felt good. but nights other kids screams and cry's. that my friend was apart of a restless life