Resentment

I would rather die than swim across the ocean for you. I would rather feel my breath freeze than breathe life into you. I would rather feel my flesh tear from my bones. Like silk being shredded before I love you. I’d rather be a void of darkness before I bring you light. I'd rather destroy my heart and rip out my lungs. Before I even think of breathing for you. I'd rather tear myself limb from limb instead of crying for you. I'd burn myself alive before I let you touch me . My hands are raw like meat. I can no longer hold myself together. As each day passes pieces fall from me and I put them back together. I'm nothing but a mere puzzle for you. My tears are nothing but empty cries of pain. Everytime I see you I hear you. I'm always losing games. I'm always the target for you and your meaningless games. I wish I never met you. I'm a pon in your so-called games. I'm a toy for your entertainment. I'm done with being walked over. talked about. Laughed at. Used for personal entertainment. You make me sick. I'm not a toy for you to play with as you deem fit. I'm going to destroy every