Reprocessing

Intent to pretend but instead was shown truth The complex emotions and furies of youth Quick left and right light had excited a song A dissonant display of the ways i felt wrong A childhood lost in confusion and scorn A mourning for all I had given the storm A fortune forsaken for folly and fear An anger constructed, seductive, sincere A bitter redundance of “why was it me?’ A trading negation of trust and deceit A powerless sense in the lacking of self A need to do harm and to damage my health An emptiness found - antithetic thus far A longing for love in the loneliest heart A desire that mingled with guilt and with shame A separation apparent, inherently blamed A tossing and turning between my own ears An equal abundance and absence of tears A brand that reads plain it's so easy to see This mark that says “WORTHLESS” that’s worthy of me As if it in sync in a blink they were there In just a few cycles my psyche laid bare My soul stood beside as I cried and I screamed A whirlwind inside had subsided now seen