remembering (tw: possibe ed)

I remember when food was just food and not a reward. I remember not knowing what calories were but now they never leave my mind. I remember not caring about a number but now all I can care about is that number. I remember my thick, long hair before it started falling out. I remember being able to eat willingly now I get forced to eat. I remember being excited to eat now it's just a discolate task.