regrets

happiness.. what does it feels like? Does laughing count? Does smiling too? Can I be considered happy if I did it too? I laugh but bear nothing inside I smile, often, yet with sadness in the eye when was it? the last time I felt happiness was it when I was a kid? eating my favorite candy or was it when I knew nothing at all not aware of my surroundings I know I am happy back then but the feelings I couldn't get a hold of them years passed by, so is my age why is it that I'm losing myself every time tick tock tick tock why is the time speeding? wait up! I still have a lot to do! seconds turns into hours hours turns into days so is weeks into months but I had done nothing at all let's wait mybe the time will slow down so I did maybe this time I'll be happy yet I look at the window wind blows and the town bustling with people they're happy, laughing with their love ones yet here I am listening to the clock vision on my sweaty palm I had done nothing at all filled with regrets maybe If I just did something can I be happy like them too?