Regret

I forget at times I am old enough to hold responsibility I have no right to get distracted I don't have to believe I have to just keep breaking I have to keep going I have to trust the process I have to play the role I have relaxed too much I have lived too peacefully I have lived happy for too long I shouldn't have drowned into emotions I shouldn't express too much I don't have to think too much I need to take action I need to be creative I need to stop being obedient I need to stop rebelling I need to stop reveling I shouldn't stop breathing I need to create my own place I need to guard myself I need to uphold myself Is it the end? It's not the end because, it isn't satisfactory!