Red flames

The pain didn't feel same,the anger angered me differently. I wouldn't talk openly about it but my texts hides meaning right..... It's been 101 days since the last candle melted 139 days since the sad tales and not a minute gives me a reason to be at peace...... lol.............The tears wouldn't fall,My eyes so red. My heart as cold as death, nothing different from the feeling received from the shock of my new life chapter. Broken and beautiful I would always say repeatedly to my self....... How long was the physical pain,a few hours,maybe a few days How long have I had to bear the regret,anger, sadness,self disappointed, unending depth of unforgiveness and ....... I don't hate you but I wish I had a minor accident so I wouldn't meet you on the said day.