Red flag or White flag?

i knew I'd be bad for your health but i still gave in, why would you want someone who's never known what loving is, you can't just make up a reason— like "you have beautiful eyes with the way it glistens", you haven't seen me deep inside with the way I'm feeling, instead of the white flag of surrender, you chose the crimson banner, you let the bright red burn your hands, a toxic flame that never ends, i wasn't the best option, out of all the fish that swam in the ocean, you're too good for me and i can't let that be, i don't want to break your heart, if you stay I might tear you apart, the moment that I realize that i have broken something delicate, a river will spill from the tears i created