Reasons why (part one)

So tonight I will eat, that's a lie I will sleep, that's a lie I'll pray, another lie I'll type, that's a fat lie But why is it all a lie Cause I don't have a reason why, the zeal to, something to believe in, a hope of any sort. Here are some reasons why Dire, an angel I called anytime I felt scared, disappointed or unsafe and she always picked and listened. Faidat, she texts me at the right time like she knew I was about to do something stupid, and the conversations I have with her makes it so uneasy to cut. Sayo, she always looks for solutions to my problems, she is happy with me, she makes me feel seen and she doesn't get mad when I go distant, I could leave her on delivered for two days and she will still have the sweetest things to say. Bolu, even though we don't talk anymore, he taught me so much about letting things go. Desmond, for always checking up on me when I was down bad. Bassy, for letting me talk it out. Tunmishe, even though I have been such a bad person to Her she still makes me feel so special. Fola, her memes makes me laugh and she doesn't know this but it really saves on bad days. My sister, for crying with me and making me laugh after.