Realizing

I keep thinking that Life can be hard But it doesn't have to be For some idealistic reason If I could just Settle down and  Try to feel safe for once If I could just focus more on myself And achieving what I want to do What I want to do What I want to say What I want to feel What I want to learn What I want to underatand If I could just come to a revelation Or a justification  Then it would all make sense And not hurt so much I have the desire now To live up to your expectations To care more about What you really think  As if I were careless before  Not careful at all Not needing ant kind of warning Not using common sense Not spending my time properly Not realizing my goals Or realizing my own self worth Not believing in myself or my talents Not understanding some crucial element Of my character or my  Reasons for being