realistically not realistic

I've lost touch with reality It's a bit too realistic You know what they say about reality Reality sucks sadly Sometimes it doesn't feel real That's why I'm trying to run from it Far, far away from it Unfortunately I can't hide from it It has a way of finding me It always catches up to me I have to face it As much as I can't I have to force myself to It will probably break me Maybe I do need to be broken. Perhaps it's for the best That way I can be built up again I'd be a new being Building up something new A better life A much better life With a bit more luck this time I'll be as good as my word Pushing the pain and facing the force