real

I dont feel real. I haven't felt true joy in other places since you left my side. I've laughed, laughed so much I cried, enjoyed time with my friends, but it still doesn't feel real. I miss feeling real. Recalling memories with you brings so much light into the world, even if they are just memories. I like crying over you night after night, it feels real, painful but real. It hurts to feel real. Most times I daydream about us, its so beautiful and right. It feels more real than the world around me. A world without you. You make me feel real. I miss you. You pain me, but I love you