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ITS BEEN YOU AND I SINCE THE BEGINNING LEARNED WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO DIE BEFORE I LEARNED HOW TO CRY I SHOT MYSELF IN THE STOMACH AS A TEENAGE PUPPY I DIDNT DIE I JUST LOOKED UP AT YOU AND SAID GOD TELL ME WHY ITS BEEN ME , MYSELF I THINK SINCE THE TENDER AGE OF ABOUT 7 SURVIVED THINGS I CANT EVEN MENTION SO FULL OF PAIN I CANT UNDERSTAND HOW WOMAN LIKE ME IS PACK AROUND SO MUCH MISERY I DONT KNOW MAYBE THATS JUST APART OF MYSTERY IVE BEEN STANDING BY YOUR KIDS SO LONG STANDING ALONE SOMTIMES I GET MYSELF AND I CRY I GOT DREAMS SO BIG THEY THREATEN TO ARREST THE HEART IN MY CHEST I GOT LOVE DEEP IN MY SPIRIT BUT ABANDONED EVERYTIME I GET CLOSE TO A PERSON I FEEL CAN GIVE ME SOME HOPE NOW ON ALL THIS PAIN MAN I CHOKE NO WONDER I NO LONGER WANT DOPE REMEMBER BEEN AWAKE AT NIGHT IT WAS THE ONLY WAY I FELT I COULD COPE IM SOUL BIGGER THAN MY HEIGHT AND MY FIGURE I WONDER IF ANYONE CRY IF I ONCE AGAIN PULLED BACK ON THAT TRIGGER