Rape me

I want to have sex the right way i don't care I want to have sex when you and I are ready I want to be safe about it I want you to use a condom or I want I don't want to do it until I get married I know that how it is supposed to go but I don't want to look at my pasted you said you wanted to come over you said you wanted to talk but I didn't know what you meant by that I said yes and you rape me I know I was enjoying it because really I regretted it I know I told on you but I wish I should have done more than just that I know I let it go but I am glad i have talk to you in so long because after I that happened i can't see us as friends or more than friends i know i forgive you but i want you to say i am sorry and I want you to admit rh to did something wrong I feel like hurt you me