random thoughts

hello there! i lose in something i can not tell i feel so dumb!! why i haven't stopped yet while i still have time? i just want things to be back in what it used to be please send help and hope that it'll get better very soon and here i am now searching on how to talk in the Almighty one and had realized that hy in time of despair we seek him the most? i want to cry i want to redeem myself i dont know how should I start i hopd I'll get what i had ...............