Questions Inside my mind

Fear in my soul, deep and wide, tears in my eyes I try to hide. That sadness lingens, though I pretend that nothing has ever happened or will again. I said myself with lost hope. That everything is going to be all right ya all right. But still questions swril within my mind; what 's now ?, what next ?, why me ? ; I wrstle with my thoughts each day, feeling like an eternity to me, searching for an answers endlessly. The question lomming on my lips, Is this what I deserve or did I resist ? Is this my due, for all my trials and tests. the pain I've gone through, I haven't believe in more; yet the world should known ! All I heard is that's a big NO! My sharted heart is broken into pieces Oh and my shared heart is bore to pay the price, bore the price to pay.