Questions

I have so many questions on my mind Like why do always fall in love with the first boy I find ? Would he ever feel the same? Or would I have to put out the flame Why is it when I stare into his eyes ? All the pain go's away and files I try to push him away But he has a special place in my heart where he stays Will I ever be able to experience true love ? Maybe if I wait but it's been so long Maybe I am in the wrong I am not in love I just want his comfort But why is it when he is close I feel fluttered ?