poisonous

I feel like a disease, my words will sink into your head, my emotions will take control of you, hate should not exist when I love you, I need to keep my anger to myself, my problems are my own. but who else do I have, truly? I know myself not, I've put off the thinking, it's hurting me now, I'm so angry, I could bash my head in, I could scream, explode! I should not share my thoughts, but they fester within, any outside force I'll retaliate with a fearse, sinister tongue, I'm becoming my mother at such a young age, there's still time to change, but will the time only be in the between? I don't know who I am, really, and I don't know how I'm going to make my mark; Yet.