Poison hearts

why do i still think of you? its been 20 years since I held you in my arms, confessed my love, devoted all I had to you, allowed all the harm while thanking God above that I had you in my life. I followed your twisted rules without question, fed only on your promises of love for me, I was an afterthought, but you were all i could see. we loved like winter and fought like summer rains. we kissed like stars colliding and touched like a wildfire blaze but one day you said it. I wasn't the one for you you never loved me nothing from the last 4 years was true. and goddammit at 3am, in darkness, I can hear our song and I still fucking think of you. and I know in my heart, you never think of me.