pleasures

don't do it because the moment you do you can't stop . I did it and indeed I didn't stop . I gaslight myself into thinking it's normal , its okay but deep down I don't feel right I mean it did feel right ofcourse , it felt good , it felt amazing guilty pleasures always do . the sensation , relaxation, letting go just always feels new but I feel like shit afterwards and I don't think that's worth it or something I should do . so I stop .it's too late but I do stop . and I hope I have it in me to realise that I definitely can stop , but I shouldn't stop praying for the guidance and strength and forgiveness required to make sure I do stop .. or else I'll never stop eating .