Please lord help

What's going to happen to me in life. Please, God, don't let her quiet. I know that my friend told me that personal care isn't so bad. But I don't want to go there now. Please, Lord, help dont let her quiet. Have her see the actual truth. I don't hate her. I don't mean to dis respect her. Let all be good, don't let me leave. Don't have her quiet I lose my boy. And I'm in a place I just don't wish to be right now. It's to early to go there right now. Please lord help.