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a poem about me such a cliche in a world with people centered around themselves and—-- TODAYS PROGRAM IS SPONSORED BY MY WILL TO LIVE! such a good joke i need to laugh, i have to laugh hey hey hey hey calm down deep breath count to 10 1 my thoughts are spiraling i feel dizzy 2— Has the light always been that bright? My clothes always this uncomfortable? Maybe i should—-- i need to water the flowers or they’ll die Maybe I shouldn’t keep flowers if I can't care for them and I forgot to eat again. Was I saying something? i don't know my life is such a mess lately, i forget about self control. The people are too loud, and the silence is deafening Sorry, was I saying something? I need to feed the cats….Have i done my homework i should study. My brain tends to be a mess that I'm too lazy to tidy. I need to take my pills that’ll help I say to myself. again and again and again. I feel dizzy. I reach for the bottle and open it. inside Alice was wandering and the cheshire cat shoots a grin in my direction, my pill bottle is a playground, where the white roses are painted red, i reach in, to grab a pill, a drug to detangle the yarn ball in my head, i get bitten and scratched amd—--- nothing spins anymore, nothing hurts, the cat is gone with alice too, i live my life now, like a robot almost, waiting on a remedy for my own selfish problems