perfectism

I try so hard to be perfect I want to be the definition of perfection but when I looked for my name amongst the letters of perfect but I seem not to exist you see perfect is a word used in every day life but I truly question if it exists because perfection is used as a example of models faces and bodies with tight waist and perfect jawline perfection is used on front covers of magazine perfect perfect I don't think that word describes me or you or the models influencers celebrities because that word doesn't exist in the dictionary of today I'm not perfect because mommy made me a writer 🩶🤍