Peace ✌️ is all I need

Funny how my first love was someone I never dated but still the one whose memories make me fall asleep. He's still the reason I keep writing He's the reason why I want to be better hopping that if I'm perfect he'll want me. there was always that void in my heart. Questions unanswered What did he not see in me that he saw in everyone other than me. I sometimes ask why he acts like he likes me when I'm with him and treats me like a stranger when I'm far. some questions will never have answers and the love I have for him will never be seen. Roses are red and violets were never blue. Even their name tells their color but yet we still ignore that fact. Funny cause that's how we all are , we prefer to understand what we want to because the truth is too hard to digest. Tall , dark , handsome that's who he is. And I am sure he knows who he is but handsome boys need beautiful girls right. I mean a hot guy and a girl like me , total disgrace to the gang. But that's another reason why love will always be a scam. You start to doubt yourself. Your capabilities Your strength because one person saw you unworthy. Anyways not all roses are red , some are white and those are my favorite because peace is what I need now😞