Party

I got drunk last night well actually I get drunk most nights i go and socialize and slur my words and usually do things I end up regretting in the morning I want to feel something anything so I try to find my emotions in the bottom of a liquor bottle I make jokes I laugh at two in the morning on a Wednesday night I lose myself just for the adrenaline rush and I do it all again the next week I push myself out of bed after ignoring the fourth alarm I sit and put on my mask for the day the one that smiles and makes jokes the one that makes people think they don't need to worry and then I come home and take it off it looks different for everyone it could be different today than yesterday check up on your friends even the ones who look okay who laugh at two in the morning because depression likes to party too.