part 6

you an to Betty your daughter but mine as well as you were to nirvana imma get her middle name to be urs ... Elizabeth... I love it amd she reminds me of you even tho she's my blood shell have some of your wonderful triats..... I miss waking up to your voice kisses and even ur crabby yelling at me bitchies ..... you held my heart were all I felt was hurt you held me while I cried and you knew what had happened with out me even having to say one word.... you walked with me thru elementary. middle school n my first son passing away after being only alive for 2 days ... and you were there thru highschool too.. ... impulsive relations lead to a toxic marriage and his addiction soon became mine as well but I got better and found out you did as well..we did recovery and we were apart few yrs and I had lost all I ever loved after I went thru the worst times of my youngest adult life abuse ... rape ... a loss of a child I was pregnant with... that I'm not proud of but to say andstay be truthful I felt forced in to that abortion... when no one wanted that rape baby I wanted her I may have needed her... she was innocent n I blamed my self for doing WHT I did so I began my H travels but I made it out of mine .