panic attacks & asthma attacks

half cocked smiles welcome me home passions carved inside their arms the same arms that open wide for all yet, if given the chance, strangers would look down on them and stride right past, remaining skeptical; keeping their distance gloom hangs over my thoughts like the loneliest rain cloud fingertips cold to the touch from lack of humyn compassion souless eyes staring into the void of my heart faint whispers of what we once were of what i once was seldom do we recognize ourselves step to the edge and take that leap of faith I promise you, no one is watching regretfully warning you, no one will ever notice save your tears for my petals have wilted and fallen decaying beneath my feet *Atychiphobia coursing through my veins *Enochlophobia; the icing on my birthday cake my loving embrace rottting inside and out please accept my third molars as payment for yesterdays ignorance staring at the sun to pass the time i blindly march against the grain 8 times have i attempted to meet miss death 8 times have i never come close to succession im beginning to think shes ghosting me *Atychiphobia: fear of failure *Enochlophobia: irrational fear of crowds