painful of pains

I might get to keep my fur baby. I dont want to let go. He might need a better life,better than what I can give him. But I can't let go. I can't give him all he needs. But can't you get that I can't be without him. I know I screwup, but I can't let go. I love him still despite my errors. Despite this, I can't give him what he needs. I still love him. It is like punching my heart. Not like ripping it out, for I had to give away pets. I've lost pets too, but you give me the most pain you can ever give me. I mean, it hurt for a long time and will be very painful. So don't let be in this kind of pain don't let me lose my pet cat. In any way like takeing him away for I be in the most painful of pains.