"Pain might feel like home"

I wonder what's inside your mind, what secrets you all keep from me. All the thoughts in your head, things you know will get me on my knees. This was never what I did, this isn't me. It's all new. I sit side by side with my emptiness, am quite but don't take me for a fool. I live in this world, where pain is my only home You happy for a moment, the next thing you know is that you fall. Standing in the dark, tears falling from my sides. Am drowning, am drowning, help me cross these tides. But nobody will care, I'll drown from all my thoughts, Since you all hide it from me, so it's me and my ghosts. In the end, I'll be the same fragile-hearted girl Looking for love, hopelessly, but know I'll fail.