Pain; like a rainbow

Pain Like a rainbow crossing through my heart I can't seem to get enough Tbh I'd rather feel pain then love Love is a torturous thing to go through Where is the branches? Where is the leaves Everybody left only leaving me.. What else to do except to drain and weep? I can't get enough of love. Warm Consistent Lies Idk what else to do except to feel it all piercing my heart I cry out but to no avail leaves they fall but they also sprout choosing to grow choosing to falture decision after decision life is a golden rose a gift, do we deserve?