pain

I've been feeling pain, not pain like sticking a needle in my vein, but pain like the kind you feel when you're all alone like everyone forgot who you are like they forgot your damn name, this pain rains down on my soul how I imagine being hit by a train feels like, these feelings are unbearable almost impossible to contain, I feel like I'm losing my mind like I can't tell what's real and what's fake, I pray God takes me out of my head and gives me strength to stay sober another day, maybe one day I'll be able to rightfully use my brain. ~B