Pain

Damn,he only wants me when he wants sex, why do I have to be there for him when he needs me only when it benefits him? the way I love him,can't he see he's breaking my heart,can't he feel it,why am I unhappy? why was my happiness short-lived? why do I have to feel extra love for him when he's blank about me? is this how love works? should it hurt this much?my poor heart,broken,yet again,countless pieces, how do I heal? how do I not love too much? how do I not give it my all again? too much expectations are killing me inside,tears flowing freely,my love scattered into countless directions,how can I bear the pain I'm feeling? how to move on? how to not think of him,to not cry when everything reminds me of him. too painful