pain

Mixed signals fill my cup with your name on it The careless thoughts ,no contact Memories that disappear when you give up the thoughts of us in your heart You lying awake missing the Passionate person I once was to you Will be your fault Will be your fault at night Days going on 1 day,2 days I count of repeat that u are gone You come back like nothing is wrong But we both know you don't want this as you choke up excuses to pretend that were okay when we are breaking like the wine glass in your hand Bleeding all over the floor of my heart that keeps getting broken from you . I can't handle to pain….. I can't ….. I am loosing my mind whenever I see your name pull up on my phone or the sweet dirty scent that ligerie from the last time you played me like a fiddle You marked me inside and out without remorse no scared figure for your attention seeking or wrong doings The times you held me down only to make me feel like I am unwanted,so easy replaceable The times you layed there looking in my eyes ,skin to skin telling me you loved me to scoled me or turn me into the bad guy when I wasn't looking The fact that I loved you with all my being now all I see is a mirror of the girl that loved to easy